(Re-posted from last year.)
Lord, it’s the fourth Sunday of Advent, as I think you know, you who created the universe and everything in it, including me and all the stuff I like to think of as belonging to me.
Anyway, today is the fourth Sunday of Advent, as I mentioned, and I’m sitting here in the early morning darkness, with the house still, my cup of coffee nearby, made from freshly-ground beans, just the way I like it, and the dog is waiting patiently for our daily walk around the block. (I like this time of day – once again, as you know.)
And I’m thinking about what this day means – for me, for you, and for the world you made. Such big thoughts for so early in the morning, I know.
So much of what I hear from friends at this point in the season is whether or not they’re in the mood, whether or not they’ve captured the spirit, or whatever they think they’re supposed to be feeling right about now. And I confess that I’ve done quite a bit to get myself into the mood. I put up the tree, for example, and decorated it, while listening to lovely Christmas music. That was nice. And last week I went to the big Christmas concert in town, featuring candlelight and over 200 singers and musicians, you know the one. I hope you liked it, too.
And I came away that night thinking, “Hey, I’m really in the mood now! And look! There’s even snow on the ground!”
But this morning, before anyone else is up, before I’m fully awake, I realize that this season doesn’t depend on me. Whether I’m in the mood or not. Whether I’ve got the spirit or not. And I’m thinking that might actually be good news.
Because whatever I’m feeling – or not feeling – you looked with love on the world you made, and you became one of us. And not just a better version of us, but the version of us we could never be. You came to us as a baby, born to a mom and dad. You lived our lives as we must try to live them, with laughter and friends, as well as betrayal and loss. You did all that. And much more besides.
So, to wrap this up, because I know others (not as industrious as I am) are beginning to wake up and offer their morning prayers too, I’m trying my best to remember that none of this depends on me. None of it whatsoever. My joy this season is what you did for me. And for the whole world. And for that I’m more grateful than I can possibly say. Amen.